Vorwärts oder rückwärts ?

This is what I experienced at this time forwards or backwards?, if forwards, I will lose a friend, if backward, I had to let go of her, a confusing choice in my opinion. But if I was willing to let go and have a conflict with my own friends? but what if I also must be willing to let go of her which so far I wish during the one year ago ? I had to choose one from it, but i could not just as easy to let go of her, I was already working too hard to get it, and she was a woman who wanted me to have since the first, You said "Is this name of a friend?" you would think I cheated you and do not appreciate you, but I was asked back to you  "Is this name of a friend?" who can not understand my feelings and maybe you yourself are aware of your current position is ex, Okay I understand if you still love her, but I was wrong if i love her ? I appreciate you as a friend of mine but  my position here does not cheat you, because you were in a position ex of her, But if you still do not accept for this reason okay I will resign, although it is heavy in my opinion, and if necessary I will help you to reunite you with her, as my apology to you if I did wrong in your eyes but I am here not in a position to lose, but relented to respect you as a friend. I just acted professionally in this matter and do not want to bring up the problem even though I am not who started it.

And I hope you understand if you are in my position, but it seems it's not your nature :)